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it's your fault things are the way they are.
can't you see the hurt you've caused?
if you're looking for forgiveness,
you have to show you mean it.
but you're just so caught up
in the person you've become.

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the hardest part of this whole situation is that neither of us know what`s going on. neither of us know what eachother`s thinking & we`re both trying to make decisions based on information we don`t know. I`m just scared to tell you my feelings just in case you don`t feel the same way

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i guess i'll never know what loves means to me, but i'll keep rolling down this road. but i've got a bad bad feeling it's gonna take a long time to love, it's gonna take a lot to hold on, it's gonna be a long way to happy.

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I'd rather live my life, making tons of mistakes
than have someone control me & tell me what to do.

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Sometimes you have something you need to say, but you can't,
because the words won't come out, or you get scared and feel stupid.
So if you could write a song and sing it, then you could say what you need to say,
and it would be beautiful, and people would listen,
and you wouldn't make a complete idiot out of yourself.
But all of us can't be songwriters,
so some of us will never be able to say what we're thinking,
or what we want other people to know we're thinking.
So we'll never be able to get the chance to make things right again.

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being without you takes a lot of getting used to.
i should learn to live with it; but i don't want to.
-chicago.

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Dear You,
 You're probably thinking I've forgotten all about you by now, but that's far from it. I have missed you every waking day & my heart still hurts, but I'm getting better. I continue to smile & still go on without you. I know I have missed you, but I have kept it all inside of me, only for me to know. I still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you're doing, what we used to talk about, to the laugh in your voice. Just, everything. I miss it all. However, I feel that the parting of us was for the best, because everything happens for a reason. Should destiny put us into a crossing road in the future, that is when I will see you again. Until then, remember this; No matter what, even through the screaming fights, the disagreements, mistakes & the tears we've cried; though I saw this as a possible outcome, I took the risk & gave you my all. Never, ever, did I give up on you. Do not give up on yourself. Believe. Anything is possible. And if you ever need a helping hand, do not hesitate to ask. I may be far away, but I will always be in reach.

¤8¤

I lost her so much sooner than I ever would've guessed
so much sooner than I thought I could be okay with
and it wasn't okay, it still isn't. But I know that she couldn't stay
for a reason. And although I'll never fully understand,
i'll be alright, knowing it's part of a bigger plan.

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the reason so many people find it so hard to
be happy  is that they will always see the past
better than it was, the present worse than it is,
and the future less resolved than it will be.

¤10¤

And then I sat and cried
It was the worst kind of sobbing
the kind that hurts your chest
and steals your breathe
And no one could hear me

¤1¤

when you told me the things i said that i didn't want to hear, it tore me apart.
well i want you to know that i don't give a fuck & yeah, you ripped me apart.
but you have no idea how good it feels to walk away from you.

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you want to know why i love you? it's because you loved me when i didn't love myself. it's because you made me feel beautiful. it's because you liked for me for me, just the way i was. it was because for the first time in my life i didn't have to work so hard at being happy. you just made it happen

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You have to know that you`re a good person & a good friend. What`s meant to be will end up good, & what is not, won`t. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can`t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don`t, you must move on & realize that what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around & don`t lose something real. Always fight until you can`t anymore, & then be fought for.

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The saddest people I've ever met in life are the

ones who don't care deeply about anything at all.

Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand. And

without them, happiness is only temporary because

there's nothing to make it last. I love to hear people

talk about what their most passionate about, because

that's when you see the person at their best.

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I`m a slut cause I`ll wear shorts & a tanktop
I`m bulimic cause I eat as much as I want & don`t gain weight
I`m a bitch cause I don`t let you push me around
I`m a liar cause I won`t tell you everything
I`m stupid cause sometimes I`m wrong
I`m ugly cause my face isn`t perfect
I`m a whore cause I like boys
I`m annoying cause I`m not chill enough
I`m a loser cause I`m not friends with your group
I use people cause I do what`s best for me
I`m fake cause most of the time I`m happy
I`m weird cause I`m not like you
I`m controlling cause I get mad sometimes
I`m clingy cause I like to be around people
I`m greedy cause I like to be satisfied
I`m neive cause I`m younger than you
I`m conceited cause I`m proud of who I am
I`m rude cause my manners aren`t perfect
I`m unnapreciative cause I don`t praise you
Don`t try to tell me who I am cause I already know.

¤6¤

"Blame yourself for all this," she said, just before she hung up. "It happened cause you didn`t appreciate what you had." That wasn't true. I was smart enough to know what I had. But too dumb to know how to keep it.

¤7¤

the best thing about pain,
it tells you you`re not dead yet.

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Forgive & forget. That`s what they say. It`s good advice, but it`s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness old scores never settle. Old wounds never heal, & the most we can hope for is that someday we`ll be lucky enough to forget
[ Grey`s Anatomy ]

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That was how you knew, love. My mother
had told me that. All you had to do was imagine
your life without the other person, & if the
thought alone made you shiver, then you knew.

¤10¤

Yes, a heart can hallucinate, when it's starved for love.
It can even make monsters seem like angels from above.

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I've noticed that if you look carefully at someone's eyes
during the first five seconds that they start to look at you
the truth of their feelings will shine through for an instant
before it starts to flicker away.

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And here it goes. I know you've moved on, moved on for good, but there are things you don't know, things that I don't show; things that I hide inside. I know to you it seems like I didn't care, seems like I was never there, but there was never once a day that you didn't cross my mind a million times. And believe me, if I could go back, I would, but things are different now. Time caught up with us & broke us apart, because now you found someone else. But that's not what bothers me. What bothers me is that you left me & that I left you, with words unspoken & a story unread. Words that are still trying to escape my heart & reach out to you, words that don't notice that time has past; words that still have meaning. What bothers me is that you didn't see the tears I cried & you didn't know that I lied when I told you I was happy. What bothers me is that you still cross my mind a million times a day & even when I'm sleeping, I can still hear your voice telling me how much you love me or how much you miss me & that's the only time I'm ever happy. It's when I'm reminiscing about you & dreaming about us. But when reality hits me, it just kills me. But the thing that bothers me the most is that all of this could have been prevented if I had just said something or done something, & the only thing that doesn't bother me is that I've learned a valuable lesson; you don't really know what you got until it's gone.

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You were always there when I needed you, never left my side, always there to lean on & dried the tears I cried. I could always talk to you. You never seemed to mind. Your voice so honest & gentle, your words so honest & kind. I thought I`d never meet someone as special as you are. You`re my best friend in the whole wide world. You`re my shooting star.


¤4¤
that's the risk you take if you change, that people you've been involved with won't like the new you, but other people who do will come along.


¤5¤
She`ll be the first to admit that she`s not perfect. Her life`s a wreck, & the only thing holding her up is the hope that it`ll get better. She`s got some friends who would die for her, & she has friends that would kill her, given the chance. She has the mental stability of a psychiatric patient, & the constant drama that surrounds her doesn`t help. She`s lost all of the people she depended on, whether it be death, or betrayal. Despite everything that has happened to her, the reason she keeps hanging on is the hope that it will all get better.


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You shouldn't feel guilty for remembering...
The past made you who you are. You need to
remember. It's a requirement


¤7¤
i could go without meeting another guy for the rest of my life.

i'd still be fine knowing you're the one i'm going to spend forever with.

¤8¤
you never know how bad a persons feeling, so dont say that you've been there before, because unless you've went through every second of every moment, you dont, and the truth is - theyre probably feeling worse than you think.


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and i used to miss you so much, but it never seemed like you missed me, i guess because of that i stopped missing you.


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& it`s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It`s funny but stupid how you want everything & nothing at the same time. It`s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, & when you want to move on but you`re stuck right where you started. When feelings come & go & you can`t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don`t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther & farther away. It`s so hard to think back to how things used to be & look at it now & realize that things are different & they may never be the same. You tell yourself it`s not worth it, but if it really didn`t matter, you wouldn`t spend so much time thinking about it


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°1°

i miss the way you called me

and we could talk all night

i miss the way you calmed me

when the tears would blind my sight

°2°

Cause he`s been a major part of your life, of course you`ll miss him; it`s perfectly normal. It`s like getting a tooth pulled out; after the dentist pulls it out you`re relieved. But how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just cause it was hurting you does`nt mean you don`t notice it. It leaves a gap, & sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It`s going to take awhile, but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, cause it was causing you pain. Pulling the tooth was the right decision, but it`s going to hurt.

°3°

there's no point in asking someone to stay when their heart has already left.

°4°

And she's the reason why

I never needed an

imaginary friend

°5°

You may have created my past & fucked up my present

but no way in hell are you gonna have control over my future

°6°

you ever wake up from a really good dream and just try to get back to sleep? or you have the flu and promise yourself you'll appreciate normal so much more if you could just get back to it? that's the way i feel. i just want things to go back to the way they were.

°7°

and i think the worst feeling is being forgotten by someone you could just never forget about.

°8°

But we understand each other &

we care about each other, & I believe

that years from now we still will

°9°

i'm done being sad over you.

i have enough stress without

you adding to it.

& i won't let you be the reason

for my tears

°10°

You don't know me like you used to.

you stopped listening to me the

moment I needed you the most.

°11°

i learned how to hold on

but not how to let go

°12°

Sometimes..sometimes you meet somebody & you know that whatever you did before, whatever your life was before, it must have been right..nothing could`ve been too bad or gone too far wrong, cause it led you to this person. You`re that person.

°13°

I want this so bad that it`s hard to stop & think about what I deserve.

°14°

Life kicks you around sometimes.

It scares you and it beats you up.

But there's one day when you realize

you're not just a survivor. You're a fighter.

You're tougher than anything

life throws your way. And you are.

°15°

i used to be a strong girl. but a lot has changed,

a lot has happened, and i've had to deal with so

much more than any person should ever have to

go through, and you know something? i finally

broke. everything around me crashed, and i fell

right with it. i'm not that strong anymore.

°16°

you are my summer breeze, my winter sun,

my springtime soul; my autumn touch of gold.

& you are my sky, my rain;

the earth in which my love grows.

cause you're all; the smile of my heart

and the breath of my soul

°17°

One of the scariest things is telling someone

"I love you more" and realize you're right

°18°

BACKSEAT,

windows up

°19°

i miss you so much.

i don't know how to accept

the fact that you're never

coming home.

°20°

what i don't understand is how a person can tell you so many lies and never feel bad about it.

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